Oh another blog! So what is so special that about this blog? Nothing! I am not special; I am just an ordinary person living an ordinary life. Well that was until I was suddenly diagnosed with kidney failure. With this diagnosis I was plucked out of my ordinary world and dropped into a world of needles, biopsys and hospital food. This new world I now find myself in I call my Yellow Circus.
My Yellow Circus is not your normal run of the mill Ashton Brothers circus. It is full of circus acts that at times are scary, challenging and push the boundaries for everyone involved. The acts change daily and for most of the time the shows are random and unpredictable!
This blog is ultimately part of my therapy to get through this time in my life. So I would like to apologise up front to anyone who is reading this. My writing is poor and I am not that focused on my grammar. I am also not a professional blogger, so I can’t gaurantee that my posts will be entertaining or gripping. All I can promise is that it is all real and at times you might find it confronting as these are my raw, uncensored thoughts and I am just an ordinary person who has been thrown an unexpected curve ball in life.
So welcome to my blog about the year I said goodbye to my kidneys.
You ARE special and your writing is funny, witty and entertaining.
I hate the circus in real life and I hate the circus that you are living even more. But I have know that you will go through this with the grace, strength and courage that you deal with everything in life, which means you will smash the cr&p out of this disease!
And I’ll be here every step of the way. Always with salted caramel mini donuts.
xxx
Yeah I hate the circus too – I always found clowns really creepy 🙂
Thank you for having so much confidence in me, your support is everything to me. I couldn’t have gotten through this week without you. You are my rock and you have been here with me every step of the way already. Knowing that you are on this journey with me gives me strength and confidence that I will make it through to the other side.
You are one of a kind and I love you to bits xxx
This is all you! I’m just a bringer of junk food, bright drinkware and equally as inappropriate as you 😉 lots of love xx
You’ll be sure to take this from being on the side stall to being the ringmaster. With you all the way… Love you xxx
Thank you, means a lot. Well now that we know the only option that I have it is time to take control of what I can control! It is time to be the ring master of my new ordinary.
Hey Fiona, I know this “act” you are having to perform at the moment will at times be ridiculously difficult, but keep writing. It is amazing how therapeutic it can be. And from someone who publishes magazines your writing style is fantastic!!
Thanks Claire. Writing this blog started out as my way of dealing with my time in hospital, it has definitely been my therapy.
Thanks also for the feedback on my writing, it means a lot coming from you. I was nervous when Bel said she had shared the blog. I was worried what people would think of my writing, I was worried people wouldn’t connect. I’ve never done any courses on how to write, it’s just me blurting out my thoughts so pretty rough around the edges.
Thanks for your support and hope you are well.
Xxx