I wanted to be gracious and elegant in my goodbye.  I wanted to be thankful for learning and Zen like in my farewell.  I wanted to put on a smile and acknowledge only the positive.

But I couldn’t.  I didn’t.

The truth is I am glad you are gone.  I am glad you are over and in the past.  I am glad you shall never return.  I am glad your days, your weeks and your months will never be repeated.  I am glad you are yesterday.

You were hard.  The hardest I’ve ever experienced.  You came out of nowhere and brought me to my knees.  Blow by blow you broke me.  You broke me physically and mentally.  You broke me and while I was down you kicked me into darkness.  A darkness I never knew existed.  A darkness that no word could possibly describe.  A darkness I never want to fall into again.

Despite everything you threw at me I am still here.  I crawled.  I clawed.  I stumbled.  And eventually I climbed out of the rabbit hole.  You tried your best.  Your best tested me.  Your best challenged me.  And your best almost won.

Twenty fifteen you broke me but you didn’t end me.

Twenty fifteen you brought me to my knees but I am now walking again.

Twenty fifteen you left scars but they are fading.

Good bye twenty fifteen the destruction you leave behind is memorable and will be felt for years to come.

Goodbye twenty fifteen you will remain etched in my mind and in my nightmares.

Goodbye twenty fifteen you changed me forever and in some ways I’ll admit have been for the best.