Circus Show Day 12

BIG TENT ATTRACTION:  Yellow Maze

I’m lost.  Every turn I take is a dead end.  I can’t climb over and I can’t crawl under.  I could try and push through but I am fearful that the thorns and prickly leaves would shred my already bruised skin.

I don’t like this.

Who likes being lost?  In a maze?  Alone?

Nobody can show me the way out.  Nobody is here.  I want out.  Please let me out.  Can I go back to the start?  I’ll try harder. I promise to train harder. I promise to be a better performer.  Please let me go back to the start.  Please let me try again.

I don’t want to play anymore.

Right.  Left.  Left.  Right again.  Left.

I see an exit.  I see two exits.  Which one do I take?  Do I go right?  Or do I go left?

Choose right and I get to put on a new costume consisting of a permanent tube in my stomach.  This tube forms part of my new act.  In this new act I pour two litres of magic liquid down the thin tube. The magic liquid cleans my insides and is then drained out again.  It would take me 45 minutes to perform this act and come rain, hail or sunshine I’d be expected to perform three times a day, everyday.

Choose left and my new costume is a tube in my arm or neck.  My new act involves being hooked up to a machine in a hospital three times a week.

Left or right?  Right or left?

Both exits mean new costumes and drop me down a rabbit hole.  A rabbit hole without cake and tea parties.  My rabbit hole is yellow and smells like disinfectant and vegetable soup.  My rabbit hole opens on Tuesday.

Left or right?

 

3 thoughts on “Circus Show Day 12

  1. Fee, So sorry to hear your news, After recently just celebrating your news……
    I believe your strength, vision , leadership , compassion are among your most profound skills , Very few can claim those and they will no doubt stand you up in that maze.
    Big decisions ahead.
    I know you can handle them.
    Thinking of you.
    Clinton

    1. Hi Clinton

      Thanks so much for your kind message, it really touched my heart.

      Yes I have some big decisions and a long road ahead of me, however I know I can get through it with people like yourself around me.

      I hope we can catch up again soon, I always enjoy our chats! I hope you are well.

      Fee

  2. I hope you chose left. Which is the better option for most renal patients. I myself went left. Lifestyle reasons.

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