Tomorrow is today.  I don’t have days until my surgery, I have hours.

I’m so scared.

I don’t want to get out of bed.  I don’t want to shower.  I don’t want to brush my teeth.  I don’t want to put my big girl pants on and be brave.

Leave me alone!  Let me stay in bed.  I want to pull the covers up over my head and pretend the world doesn’t exist, I don’t exist.  I don’t want to be me today.

Would someone like to take my place?  Walk in my shoes?

I don’t want to go.  I don’t like hospitals.  The smell makes my nose itch.

Wish me luck.  Hold my hand.  Don’t let me fall.