I have been reflecting on my journey.    As I read through my blog posts I can easily map my ups and downs.  And I can also easily pin point my darkest moments.  The moments where I struggled the most to make sense of all that was happening.  The moments where I struggled to understand whether this fight was worth the effort.  The moments in which I doubted myself.

Even today I do find it hard to come to terms with what it all means.  Especially as I don’t have the answers to my future.  I am still living in a world of uncertainty that could come crashing down around me at any moment.  However the difference from my darkest moments to now is that I am more clear with my own capability.  My physical strength hasn’t returned but my self belief has.

I now once again believe that I should continue this fight as my life is worth living.

I once again believe that I should continue this fight as I add value to this world.