8 months later have I done enough? Have I changed and sacrificed enough?

My life is different.  I’m different.  I’ve tried.  But are you going to reward me?  Are you going to tell me it’s enough.

Please reward me.

Please tell me I’m stable.

Please stop holding my hand and watching over me.

Let me be free.  Let me be free of weekly bloods.  Let me be free of monthly invasions.  Let me free of my blackness.

I need this to claw my way out of my rabbit hole.  I need this so I can see the light and claw my way out.

Have I done enough…