I want to be strong.  I want to feel as though I can conquer it all.  I am woman hear me roar!  But right now I feel I am pathetic and weak, hear me whimper.

I’m struggling right now. I have no energy and I’m feeling pretty low.  That’s hard for me to admit.  I’ve been trying my best to keep the mask on.  To keep the painted smile bright.  But my lips are smudging and my mask is starting to slip south with my tears.  My head is heavy.  My mind is foggy and everything seems to hurt.

My drive to combat and keep battling through this is starting to fall behind.  I feel limp and vulnerable.  A friend of mine commented that my life is like a roller coaster.  And she is right.  I’m up and down day to day.  I never know what is ahead of me from one day to the next.  I’m good at adapting and living in uncertainty its just the pain and tiredness that is wearing me down.  Wearing me down, down, down.