A little mantra I read today:

Don’t forget you’re human, its okay to have a meltdown, just don’t unpack there and live.  Cry it out and the refocus on where you are headed.

So I think I’ve cried it out now I need to refocus.  I feel as though I’ve gotten off to a good start this year.  I’m back at work doing full days.  That was my first goal.  My brain seems to be functioning a lot better than it did at the end of last year.  I feel crisp again in my thoughts and I can finally connect the dots again in work situations.

But now I need a purpose.  How can I translate this knee buckling experience into something good?  I have this out there goal that I want to save others from going through what I’m going through.  I don’t want to focus on care I want to focus on prevention.  So where is that?  Why didn’t I know about looking after my kidneys?  Is it with kids?  Is it with parents?  Or both?

I think I’ve got some homework to do….