I have been diagnosed with kidney failure. This basically means that my kidneys aren’t doing what they are meant to do and we can’t fix it.
The partner of a close friend of mine had a similar experience and he told me that he kept a journal. He said it helped him at the time to express his feelings and thoughts of what he was going through. Now years on, his journal has also helped him to reflect on how he felt through his journey and how different it is to where he is today.
I loved the idea and this blog is my journal of my kidney failure adventure – which I call my Yellow Circus.
We sympathise with the issues about medical staff’s attitude to your mental well-being you have raised which we have experienced ourselves when my Dad was in hospital. You are very brave and hope that you are feeling more in control. Our thoughts are with you at this very difficult time. Keep positive. Love Jean & Graeme
Thanks for your kind words and support, it means a lot to me.
My mental state is much better, however I did have to take the matter into my own hands. It is a shame to hear that it is not an isolated problem and that you have also experienced a similar situation.
Mental health is just as important as physical health.
Princess De Stefanis so proud of you, it will all work out to be a learning experience and heaven help the world with you at full kidney function….
Hi Fee,
Sending you positives vibes and strength. If anyone can do this you and your brilliant smile can.
Wishing you all the best and thinking of you,
Mel
Thanks Mel for the positive vibes, this gets me through another day xxx
So incredibly sorry to hear what you are going through! I cannot even fathom what it would be like. I am impressed with how you already are focuing on finding strength and acceptance to build on moving forward. You are an inspiration! I live quite close to Murdoch and would love to come for a visit if you are up for it. Stay strong! Xxxxx Karin
Hi Karin
Thanks so much for your kind words and for reaching out to me. I am moving forward. I can’t say I am doing it at great speed or with much grace, but I am moving forward.
I am actually out of hospital now, so it would be great to catch up sometime for a coffee. Do you come into the city?
I hope you are well.
Fee
Fiona…..terribly saddened to read this. You’ve never been far from my heart. You are a beautiful person with a golden heart. Wishing you all the best and sending you a whole lot of love xx
Hi Sahs
So lovely to hear from you. I also think of you often. You’ll always have a special place in my heart.
I’m definitely facing my biggest challenge in life. Thank you for your love and support, I hope you and your family are all well.
Xxxx
Dearest Fiona, there really are no words to make this all better, but I know you have a backbone of steel and you will adapt and come to terms with this. Sending you and your loved ones strength at this challenging time. I know a determined lady like yourself will adapt and come through this. Wishing you only the very best with this journey xxxxx
P.s I tried to post earlier on my phone but it went a bit peculiar, so sorry if I´m peppering you with posts.
Hi
So lovely to hear from you and thank you for your kind words. It has definitely been a challenging time for us. I am lucky to be surrounded by a lot of love and support and I know we will get through this.
Thank you for reading my blog and for sending me a message, it really does mean the world to me.
I hope you and the family are well. Keep in touch.
xxxx
Hi Fee, I was really shocked to hear and read about this! I`d just like to send positivity, love and support to you at this difficult point in your life. A massive life adjustment, but you have a fantastic attitude for moving forward.
Take care & keep strong. Dan x
Hi Dan
Thanks so much for your message and for sending through positivity, love and support. That is what is keeping me going at the moment.
I hope you are all well and I think of you and your family often.
xxxx
Fee, I had a wee cry this morning reading your news… I am devastated for you and also trying to understand why you??? I am at a lost for words… I want to jump on a plane and come see you, comfort you and see you through your journey…. Which I may just do!! I want you to know I am here for what ever you need and I am wishing you strength and love while you go through this stage in your life…. I want to also understand what this means so will start from the beginning of your blog. …. Kia kaha (stay strong) my beautiful and I will be in touch to see you through this tough time xx
Hi Claire
So lovely to hear from you. I miss you!
It has definitely been a crazy time and I too have questioned ‘why me’ often. But I’ve now accepted that I’ll never truly know why and now I need to focus on my next steps and moving forward.
I appreciate your support and I would love to chat with you when you have time. Thanks again for the lovely message, it means the world to me yo hear from you.
I hope you and Daryl are well and hope to speak soon.
Xxxxxx
Hi Fee,I just wanted to let you know I read your blog as often as I can. I recognise all your feelings how scared I was back then. talking on a blog is too difficult for me. I’ve buried those feelings for a long time. Please contact me. I really do care about you and want to help you as much as I can xx
What blood type are you?