Monthly Archives: April 2016

Circus Show Day 148

The past few days I have been reminded of what is important in life.

The past few days I have been reminded of why I keep fighting to stay alive.

On Friday I shared in a very special day.  In front of friends and family my close friend proclaimed her love and commitment to her partner of twelve years.  They looked gorgeous.  The vows were mascara destroying and the reception was absolutely stunning with fabulous food and the perfect balance of mood lighting and flowers.  It was everything that fairy tales are made of.

But what struck me most on the day was the great memories we were creating.  It will be very rare, and maybe never again, that us as a group of people will come together to celebrate and interact with eachother.  We were from the past and present.  We were from Perth and from overseas.  We were friends and we were family.   There was a broad mix of us all coming together for one thing and that was to share in our friends joy of getting married.

It was a day completely devoted to celebrating love and commitment.   It was a one off.  A special occasion to be cherished and captured in our hearts forever.

These are the moments that we think about in time.

These are the moments that make being alive worth the fight.

Thank you my friend for including me in your very special day.  Thank you my friend for reminding me of the precious moments that life can still hold.

You were a beautiful bride and you are a beautiful friend.

Circus Show Day 146

I hate you for making me feel weak.

I hate you for making me feel guilty.

I hate you for the pains.

I hate you for changing my path.

I hate you for all the things I now can’t do.

I hate you for making me hate.

You are me.

Why didn’t I do the checks?

Why didn’t I know?

Let go.  Move forward.  Be positive.

Easier said than done.